I realize that I whine and complain a lot. That's why I have this blog, so I CAN whine and complain. It's a safe place where I can go to release the frustration I feel inside. I am angry. I admit it.
I am fully aware that my problems in no way compare to the horrors and tragedy that are happening at any given moment throughout the world. What man can do to harm his fellow man is unspeakable, unfathomable and incomprehensible, and I am totally blessed that I live in one of, if not THE safest country in the world. I pray every day, thanking God for my blessings, of which are many. Since my latest health issue began, I have been very fortunate to have had the help of many wonderful family members, friends and neighbours in various ways. Without them, I really don't know what I would do. I really don't.
I thank God that he trusted and believed in me when he gave me my wonderful daughter Michelle, 22 years ago to raise and love and call my own. What better blessing can one have? Absolutely none.
I thank God for my siblings and dear friends. They have always been there for me. I don't take them for granted.
I thank God for letting me have a job, a job that provides me with disability insurance. I don't know how I would survive without it.
I thank God for letting me own my home, for my pets, Chewie and PC, for not letting my illness be any worse than it is. I could be far sicker than I am, but He knew how much I could handle and gave me that to bear, no more.
I thank God for the beauty all around me, the sun, the trees, the flowers, the birds (ok, winter sucks, but I had to get a complaint in somewhere) and the knowing that I am safe in this wonderful country I live in, Canada.
I have learned a big lesson. Never take anything for granted. The day I can go for a drive, take my dog for a walk, work in my garden again, visit a friend.............will be total euphoria for me. Simple, everyday stuff that most of us take for granted, I will appreciate with a new lease on life.
Thank you Barb, Patty, Maureen, Michelle, Jimmy, Mary Louise, Bev, Linda, Richard, Judy, Christine, Andrea, Perry, Mark, Eric, Debbie, Mary and the rest of you who have helped me in ways that I may never be able to fully thank you for. I truly am blessed.
For all this and more, I will pay it forward.
(See, I can be serious on occasion)